I could see rainbows through the mist at Harvard University

 I remember the rainbows in my eyes looking across the mist,

My son racing from rock to rock, blue sweatpants darkened by moisture,

The glee of a three year old, soon followed by a little sister who was not yet

Toddling, only crowing from the stroller in the tandem of happinesss.

I remember the clouds and the rain, the long winters, the money struggles of 

Small children, graduate student and postdoc salaries, if they call it that, 

Yet we prevailed, and they grew up.  

I remember the banners of Veritas, the coming back to this place, 

The double vision of the past, with me in a crimson graduation gown, now

Looking across a cloud, through the mist in my eyes, to see her in a crimson 

Gown from atop the stairs of Widener, where we all learned to grow up

Somehow and move into the world, the mist still in our eyes as we look

Forward towards uncertainty, finding an occasional solid rock beneath

Our feet, and carrying the solemn joyful memories inside our hearts. 

Popping a balloon in an MIT strobe lab

 I didn't seem to be able to count to three

Until the second go-around, then smiling widely into the microsecond 

Flash, the balloon was burst and recorded for all history.

it was, to be here, so many years ago

In this place, that brilliant minds and timid personalities

were birthed into the dazzling world of science,

This is the place where there was no time to blink,

The balloon of knowledge was bursting in front of us

We had only to grab it, to chew at its corners and

Inhale voraciously.

I'm counting to three now, and ten and 

Twenty, to forty-five years gone by, still staggered

By flashes of brilliance resonating within these

Hallowed halls. 

The best coffee, the best friends

 No, I had never used a frother, and been offered the use of the car, and

Been accompanied on a custom bike to experience the green, dense forests 

on the way to White Pond, 

No, I don't recall feeling so cared for and so pampered,

My taste buds rejoiced when savoring the simple meal we shared.  

Yes to Paul and Rebecca, yes to Amaya, we will see each other again!

You are all so beloved, my heart is so full of joy. 

Warm in your little Concord home, so cozy, with the fancy

"Authentic polyester" throws on the couch and chair, the balcony

Looking out onto towering fir trees, 

The beautiful flowers on the table greet me this morning, even

More special that they were for Paul for his 15 years teaching.

And I smile when I spot the intricate spiderweb woven  under the 

Small stool, no doubt the small resident feels the same. 

On the road again

Maybe I only think that I like to be home,

A self-described home-body, my friends scoff in disbelief

Since I flit from place to place, Japan in April, a week in 

Santa Monica, and how gazing out at the plane which will fly

Me to Massachusettts, vertigo be damned.

A chat on the bus with a Chinese scholar, another,

A Mexican father with his children, as we wait for the gate

To open, why not watch the last half of The Matrix

And what a thrill to see my friend waiting for me at Logan,

Some 42 years after we met on an Amtrak train.  

Why not travel all the time, actions do speak louder

Than words.

On the road again.

 

The last morning together

She never smiles for the camera but I caught her in that last moment

Of being together, in a cozy bed, under a cozy comforter, with her Mimi.

That's me.

And the little one to the side, a moment before he started trying to lie on top of her,

We were all so peaceful, smiling, happy, in those moments before I had to say good-bye

For now.

Why does my heart ache so when I have to say good-bye, knowing that I'll see them

Again under sunny Colorado skies, so soon, even,

But that moment when she smiled, he clutched his new robot toy, the

Moment before they started squabbling over contested purses, 

His with two colors, but smaller, hers, bigger but missing the seahorse

Which she had placed in her new Fanny pack.  

She smiled and so did I, my heart prematurely aching for the many

Miles soon to be between us. 

 

And then there were two

There were two, after all, big sister with crocheted purse

And a little brother, who was usually in the shadow of his big sister.

We heard him, though, his small voice filling the empty spaces

With reverberations of protest and demands, the compelling voice

Of a three year old.

There were two, after all, a second smaller crocheted purse, in 

Two colors, the masterpiece of a beginning artist

Trained at the knees of the Master 

There were two, after all, two plastic bunnies fought over

By two siblings, there were two, after all, two parents who

Raise their eyebrows in disbelief at their good fortune,

The endless challenges of two, there are two, after all,

Two sides to every story.  

 

Crocheting for Barbie

She wanted me to crochet her a sweater in multiple-colored yarn 

But we settled on beach outfit for Barbie, multi-colored with contrasting bows

Using yarn for beginners, the single strands for the clumsiest fingers.

She wanted to learn, struggling to hold the right yarn tension between pointer

And thumb, her hands unsure how, I assured her that it took me many many

Many hours to master, so we settled on threading the yarn around the crochet hook

As my more experienced fingers held the yarn for her.

Each successful stitch resulted in the broadest smile, the greatest accomplishment

Ever for the both of us, this lazy afternoon after kindergarten, before the 

Demands of washing hands and eating dinner.

Deliriously delightful.