I'd call it Restlessness

People are going places,
winning scholarships,
moving to new places,
learning new skills,
I study the difference
between two tomatoes
started from seed at the same
time, one put inside a water wall
versus the other I kept inside,
I watch the grass grow taller
in the backyard and wonder
when I will mow it,
I build a chickenwire cage
around the finch nest to try
to protect the babies from a
marauding blue jay.
Other people are riding
long distances, reading literature,
advancing themselves,
I struggle to write a poem tonight
about something remotely
interesting.
I’d call it restlessness.