huh?

I didn't mean that, no, actually
I did mean that, sort of,
well, I captured that tiny part but not the
bigger meaning, it was lost in some sort of,
sort of, disconnected rant that probably came across.
wrong.
I meant that part, I know it's confusing
even me and I know what I meant, at least,
I thought I did when I wrote it at the time
late at night over a cold cup of decaf,
knowing coffee should be drunk hot,
fully caffeinated early in the day
when the mind is clear, the right words
will follow; you will understand me
completely.