why is packing so hard?

you'd imagine one could get better with practice,
but no,
not me.
each time as if never done before, no idea what clothes to bring
for what temperature, clothes I don't even like make it into my
suitcase somehow, no sign of my hearing aid
or toothpaste, bifocals, what book would I
want to read, each decision paralyzing
in its ridiculousness.
I'd pay someone to do this,
I scurry to water the plants
as if they had never been neglected
before, as I am leaving
for eternity...
its just the
weekend
for god's sake.