The most secret memory of men - Joan Didion's notebook

and of women?  yet, yes, 

his secret lay in seeking and destroying

the Nazi criminal who sent his friend to the

gas chambers.

That book was never completed as far as we know.

that is his secret, 

there are so many secrets, industrial espionage

burning down the house, 

so the words in this book went deep where

no one goes freely, in our lives, there are so many

hidden dangers, and we see rainbows 

she and I, as we pant our way up the hillside.

This notebook, this one inspired by Joan Didion

where I think of Richard Feynman, of Saliou

and Djiby, of Badou and Iba, of all that was lost on 

this trip, of misunderstandings and turning away,

of that was gained, a view of hordes of pelicans 

swirling in the sky, fish still swimming in their bellies.

All of this is only known to me.