Falling Asleep

I'd like to catch that moment of falling asleep,

ready with my lab notebook open, an accurate watch

I watch for the moment, sneakily, with my eyes closed,

but alert, eyelashes fluttering slightly.

Awake, awake, awake........Awake

but did I fall asleep during the ellipsis

awake debugging code

asleep flying above town clutching a kite string in my hand

awake worrrying about bills

my pen lies adjacent

no additional lab book entries

missed it again.