he was just kidding when he emailed
that I surprised him with my negativity,
so like my daughter who equates
realism with negativity.
I call it the way I see it is all.
time is too short to pretend that
it's alright when it's not
no one wants to write it down
because it's a commitment.
I might go back to Utica after all,
flying all day to wrestle with vacuum
systems and eat breakfast in cardboard
I can relax on the plane.