(not) losing weight

really

calories don't count because the scale keeps 

                  going up and up and up

even though we're not eating any more than usual,

my friend and me,

a cup of yougurt:  137 calories

half cup of fruit:  42 calories

all said and done, less than allotted for today

and yesterday and the day before

she says she's puffy and bloated,

the little pouch on my tummy is still soft

and little spare tires are growing

but today I started counting and

I'm hungry

I don't like dieting.